let's talk (1)

Sometimes it's sad not having a love story to tell. When people ask about it, I always lie. What do I have to explain everything about any aspect of my life?

I love romance books and movies. I'm pretty romantic but I haven't found the way to show it. Probably because I was raised as a boy. Yes, I am a woman but my family always wanted a boy. I don't complain about my education, I never did because it has helped me in some aspects of my life.

Since I remember, I don't like to show my emotions. I keep everything inside. I hate physical contact, I feel uncomfortable when someone hugs me, even if it's my mom or my sister. And yes, I haven't had a boyfriend because of that, I think. By the way, I'm twenty six old. Not get me wrong, I'm sure about my sexuality.

Well, I was raised as the big brother, even I was the younger sister. Physically, I'm more like my father. I always though that my parents wanted one daughter and one son, but not, my mother didn't care about my gender when she was pregnant and my father had two sons ten years ago before knowing my mother... well, I didn't know about that until I was twenty three.

I accepted my position in the family: the son who works with the father and take care of the whole family. I didn't have any problem about that until today, because I don't know who I am, I don't know what I want to do with my life, and most of the time I don't even care.

I like waves.